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I hate complaining but you know what .. its not like i can say this all to someones face.. sad really that i have to express myself to a fucking computor screen
Well i moved into my new house.. its alright.. its a nice out.. but I barely know anyone around me.. and it sucks.. i miss my old crew... being able to call any one of my boys up and saying lets go and in 5 minutes we have our group together.. here .. different story im not goin to lie there hasnt been a night yet at this new house that i havent cried.. for instance right now im crying.. fuck it man.. Its not that i hate it here.. just for some reason lately ive been feeling so fuckin depressed... and cry out of no where it sucks..
Another thing.. call me stupid or just a fuckin hopeless girl. but i miss and still like joe .. alot.. maybe its because i cant stand to be alone anymore..But I want him back.. and hes making it quite clear he doesnt feel the same. .. or me being hopeful.. im hoping its just him being busy.. but he hasnt called any of my calls back .. and sunday I talked to him.. he was like what you wanna hang out. i was like yea for sure.. hes like ok ill call you back when im done showering and shit.. .. 3 hours later.. no call.. fuck man.. did i fuck up with him?.. or did i make the right choice.. should i just move on?.. I wrote him an email telling him that i liked him and all this shit.. and said if you dont call me then ill understand.. so i guess well see..
But see im all messed up.. I really like someone.. but I know it wil never work. because one.. he doesnt even realize it .. but i cant tell him because were like bestfriends and i dont want to fuck that up.. and i know he wouldnt want anything of it and wouldnt understand and just get weirded out.. but Just sitting there listening to him everyday about how hes lonely and is trying to find a girl that will like him for him and all this shit.. and i know him inside and out.. and im screaming in my head.. look at me damn it.. but i know he wouldnt ever do that.. so I guess i give up on him. just something ill keep to myself. oh wells.. forget that..
Man i HATE feeling like this.. feels like theres a hole.. somethings missing at the same time. that hard time breathing and shit is still there.. it sucks.. but i dont know what to do ....
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Still Feeling like shit but im sick of complaining so thats all im goin to say
So heres something i did to pass the time today.. ehhh. DO IT..you get some pretty amusing results
Its the Slogan Generator.. put your name in the box and see what your slogan is.. heres my Three!
Trish-"COME ONE COME ALL TO TRISH" wow im not a whore lmao hahaha
Tricia-" LIVE IN YOUR TRICIA PLAY IN OURS" - woa haha.. im not something to play or live in.. unless? uh
Patricia- " MOMMAS GOT THE MAGIC OF PATRICIA" - wtf haha yeah! mommas love me damn it haha
And finally the best one.. hahaha
Patricia Bourque- "TASTE THE PATRICIA BOURQUE".. wow my name just screams out sexual things eh?.. wow im surprised theres not one saying.. tricia open all night and day.. like wtf haha
So now i know what my nickname hooker from my buddies stuck so much haha.. goes with the name
So heres the site try is for yourself hehe
http://www.thesurrealist.co.uk/slogan.cgi
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Alrighty heres another update alot has happened since then.. AND I MEAN ALOT! this is also me venting
Well im moving for one.. for the frist time in about 9 years im finally moving.. to a place im not to fond off.. i dont know anyone around my new house..i dont even know the place to well.. and its shit.. like the house it nice.. and its awesome to get out of a fuckin apartment building full of assholes.. but man.. im not liking it.. i have all my bestfriends around here.. like i can walk over to the house in minutes and we always chill late at night.. no more of that ... i guess im not really goin to have a social life anymore after school.. cuz well no one really lives near me to be able to do spontaneoius things...FUCK MAN.. oh wells.. i guess i gotta take what im given .. no choice or way out of this one.. but man im goin to miss my friends so much....Well besides that load of news
Im single again.. me and joe got in a HUGE ass fight.. he said he deserved better then me and that he can find someone better.. i called him an asshole and told him i didnt even wanna be friends with him afterwards.. so he went off again saying thats fine im an immature bitch and to fuck off.. that he treated me like gold but i didnt even deserve bronze.. nice eh.. yea definately made me cry.. but oh wells.. I messaged him when i was drunk **first time we talked since the fight** and well that was friday night.. he picked me up.. we chilled in his car for like 2 hours talking.. he told me he missed me and shit and wanted to get back together i told him i didnt know if i could.. since well.. that shit that happend.. but oh wells.. so i guess were on a "Break" but i dont know if this break is goin to end or not.. i havent talked to him really since friday night.. so its not looking to good i guess.. i dont know what i want anymore to be honest with myself.. i want to be single.. yet i HATE being alone.. and i really like him.. and well someone else too.. but not like that one matters... fuck man i hate this....I really want someone right now but i know i can never get him back.. i fucked up and well now look where im at.. damn it.. I wish i could just meet someone totally new and not know them and they live close.. man im asking for too much........
Schools such a drag .. like fuck.. easy classes i guess.. but boring as fuck.. and for some reason shits just getting loading to all fuck right now.. and its stressing me out.. baseball is starting i guess thats a good thing.. and so is track.. and im starting to work out again.. i think im goin to go on a diet.. so i can feel better about mysel fI got my tattoos touched up last week so they re all done now.. they look alright.. i guess im just really not happy with myself right now for some odd reason.. its weird.. im back in a slump .. it fuckin sucks.. it feels like theres someone constantly sitting on my chest.. pushing my shoulders down.. and like holding my breath.. my eyes water up for no fuckin reason and i just feel like shit.. udder shit man.. i know theres ppl out there right now that have alot worse.. and im sorry for venting and talking like this.. i guess im just a fuckin pussy who cant stand that much shit.. I just feel like uugh i cant explain it! i Guess im just in one of my depression slumps again.. man i hate these things.. i was goin so well .. 3 months well 2 and half without anything like this. and well all good things come to an end right.. fuck.. uugh.. i went to school todayand seriously.. just sat there stared waiting for the day to end..wishing i wasnt there.. but then i though i have no other place to be ..man i would kill to be one of those skinny pretty popular people that everyone wants to be like.. uuggh.. i know its stupid.. but how good would that feel..
Ever want something so bad?..it almost hurts?
Ever look in the mirror and actually hate yourself.. and think what a waste?
Be someone you werent?
Wish you felt good inside and out
Every that seems good just reveals itself to you .. and well its not what you though it was at all.. and all your left with is dissapointment and pain..
I HATE THIS FEELING.. i just want it to go away.. fuck man =( Ugh!.. here we go crying for no reason.. fuck im stopping this shit.. adios
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[01 Mar 2006|10:00pm] |
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Alright heres a much needed update!
Well Grease went AMAZINGLY WELL... I loved it.. im goin to miss the cast. The cast party was great and guys we put on one heck of a good show i must admit. And thank you for all of those who came to see and my close friends who supported me through this long hall. it was worth it!
Well accept the one show. Friday night before our 2nd last show i got the stomach flu.. waiting for the show to start i slept in the Cafe with the cast then ran to the bathroom puked.. they moved me into the dressing room.. puked in that bathroom.. then they moved me into the art room.. no toilet in there so i puke ALOT in the sink . they were gunna cut me out of the dance numbers and my songs but i begged them not to .. so i did the entire show.. and everyone said i did of my bestshows.. i tried so hard.. i did all the dances accept one cuz well the handjive was a bit much for my stomach flu haha..
Well as for me and joe were awesome.. i "Luv" that guy alot.. like we have good times with eachother.. but i dont wanna jinx anything.. but lets just say things are great the way they are right now.
Im moving the end of this month .. according to my parents. They wont tell me where. but i guess its gunna be closer to my school and my dads work so im not complainging.. less bussing and shit for me i guess..
I GOT MY TATTOO today.. it looks awesome!.. didnt really hurt at all... yet again i have a high pain tolerance. And who else would i have come with me .. but my BESTFRIEND BRIT! hehe.. we chilled for the day and she watched me get my tat done.. thnx for being there brit see ya this weekend..
LIFE IS GREAT RIGHT NOW! **knocks on wood** i love the way things are right now.. ive been closer to my old buddies again which is awesome and i couldnt be happier.. this semester is amazing.. so easy .. only math drama religion and law.. im loving it!
Joe<33
Adios homies! miss yas for those I havent seen in a while.
MOLLIE THNX SO MUCH FOR COMING I MISS YOU SOOOOOO MUCH RBOL>> COME OVER SOON DARLIN!
Trish!
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Alright so nothing much is goin on... what am i saying .. i havent had time to myself let alone relax the last few days.. between grease.. and my baby joe.. im always on the run.. but i love it.. I love Grease right now its so much fun at times .. mind you there are many hectic and frustrating times.. like the freddy my love scene.. GAH.. no ones getting their lines.. and when they do they cut me off for mine!.. oh well.. so today is our first show for grade schools this morning.. and tomorrow is our first show for outside of school of ppl.. im pretty pumped!!
Well things with Joe and I are awesome!.. we had a lil of a conflict saturday but we talked it out and made things even better then before which i didnt think was possible.. but boy was it ever..i miss him.. im goin to see him tonight hopefully<33 man hes too awesome lol..
So aahhh i gotta go sing and dance for another 3 hours.. yesterday we had practice from 2:30 until 7:00 .. it was brutally long.. but somehow the time just flew by for me..it hit me afterwards though when i got home and i was dead tired lol
Well ive been talking and getting back with jacki lately which is awesome i miss her.. and also with brit.. It was awesome.. saturday night me chris brit and nolan were sitting in a room just talkin and chris was like man guys this was the old crew.. the good ole days with just us four.. it was awesome.. and me and brit had a long good ass talk.. and i also had a really good talk with nolan and corey.. straightened shit out.. and basically made my presence welcome again!.. i missed those fuckers!.. their my family.. and im not goin to leave them yet ... they were only pissed at me cuz they thought i was wasting my youth .. as corey put it lol.. haha.. funny ppl.. i miss my brothers and sistas lol.. saturday was a much needed and awesome night!Although it got joe upset but like i said before we sorted it out and shit..
Ahh i miss my baby! lol
Well anyways i gotta jet and get my ass to school
Have a good day motha fuckers!
Love the Hooker
Trish
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So this weekend was pretty damn good.. mainly spent it with joe. or sleeping .. or at timmy hoes with different ppl.. hehe.. man im so happy right now .. you have no idea.. joe is just amazing.. the relationship ive been looking for basically.. its awesome!
But anyways before i go all mushy and shit haha.. umm . Grease tickets start selling tomorrow.. the show is officially 1 WEEK AWAY! im so pumped.. but i dont even think we have all our props and costumes done just yet.. aackks.. oh well.. i know mr mulvany will pull it off.. he always does!! that crazy man!
Umm.. tonight im goin to alisas for a lil get together with some ppl.. should be fun.. i miss those buddies.. havent chilled with them for a while!.. too long actually
But i gotta jet though ... Whos coming to see the play bitches?
Love the bitch
Trish
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Alright for ppl who want tickets to come see "Grease"
Staring: Alicia cunning-Sandy
Rob Hoffmann-Danny
Patricia Bourque-Rizzo
Eric Jacobson- Kenicki
Cost- 8 bucks a person
Show Dates- Thurs. Feb 16. @ 7:00pm
Fri. Feb 17 @ 9:30 mat OR 7:00pm
Sat Feb 18 @ 7:00pm
Thurs. Feb 23@ 9:30 mat. OR 7:00pm
Friday Feb 24 @ 9:30 mat. OR 7:00pm
Sat(last show) Feb 25 @ 7:00pm
Tickets should start goin on sale this Wednesday at the latest . and continue to be sold during the next week. You can to go to Brennan highschool to get them or call.. message me or stop by any time after Wednesday to order em..
Hope to see ya out there!!
Trish<3
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ok so i have time for a really quick update. umm things are AWESOME right now and i mean great.. **knocks on wood** exams are done.. i did good on al of em .. this semester is amazing i love my courses.. so much easier then last semester..
The last few shows i went to have been just as good and so much fun.. chillen with the ppl i missed so much alot more now..its pretty awesome..brit moved into windsor.. YAY!..
Umm im goin out with Joe<3 since sunday lol.. i know its new.. but still..hes been trying to get with me since near october.. and man i feel like a bitch because.. bit now i know what ive been missing out on.. and my god.. im dumb for not goin for this sooner.. hes so sweet and amazing.. but ill shush cuz i dont wanna get all mushy and shit haha.. but yea.. so thats about all folks
Oh Grease goes up in less then 2 weeks.. next week is our last week of rehursals.. so you motha fuckers better go see it!! ask me for tiz and shit next week.. cuz we should no prices and junk then!.. adios
Love yas!
Love the bitch/Hooker
Trish
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Y 0 U
[ .01. ] first name: Patricia
[ .02. ] middle name: Emily
[ .03. ] last name: Bourque
[ .04. ] nickname(s): bourky, trish,Hooker!!.. trish dish.. Bitch.. drunk punk
[ .05. ] gender: Female
[ .06. ] birthday: January 1st bizzatchez you wish you had as cool as a bday as me... suckas!
[ .07. ] height: 5'2 shutup im short
[ .08. ] hair color: nasty brown
[ .09. ] eye color: Nasty brown!
[ .010. ] do you wear glasses or contacts: only for reading.. their sexy lmao
[ .011. ] do you have braces: sure dont
[ .012. ] is your hair long or short: Long bitchez!
[ .013. ] where were you born: Windsor.
[ .014. ] current location: Winnndddsooorrr.
[ .015. ] zodiac sign: Represent the Capricorns!
[ .016. ] how many languages do you know: English.
[ .017. ] what laungage do you want to learn: french or spanish.. so sexy
[ .018. ] bad habits: eating..breaking out in dance..being confusing
[ .019. ] piercing you have: only ma eeuurrrrss
[ .020. ] piercing you want: labret.. belly buttom.. eye brow.. boob..lips.. damn alll of em!!
[ .021. ] tattoos you have:GETTING MINE IN 3 WEEKSSSSSS!!!!
[ .023. ] today: Wednesday
[ .024. ] today's date:Feb 1, 2006
[ .025. ] the time: 3:35 am.. why am i so hyper and up right now. ooh thats right just got back in from being with ma boi
[ .026. ] ready for a bunch more questions: fUCK YAS!!
F A M i L Y
[ .027. ] mother's name: Angela.. pretty eh?
[ .028. ] father's name: Brian
[ .029. ] brother's name: umm Kat?
[ .030. ] sister's name: Krystal.. also pretty
[ .031. ] favorite aunt: Gina baby.. rock it
[ .032. ] favorite uncle: All my dads bros are nutz and awesome.. Rick and Al
[ .033. ] favorite grandparent: MEME BOURQUE!<333
[ .036. ] worst relative: My pepe?. soooo mean to me... hateful old man
[ .037. ] best relative: My aunt Gee..lol..
[ .038. ] do you get along with your parents: Yes, their my best friends at times.. party on!!
[ .039. ] does anyone in your family understand you?: yes.somewhat lol
P E T S
[ .040. ] do you have any pets: Yeah!
[ .041. ] what are their names: well three names for one cat.. Earnhardt,black basterd and brother
[ .042. ] what kind of animals are they: Cat.
S C H 0 0 L
[ .043. ] are you still in school: cha
[ .044. ] did you drop out: fuck no
[ .045. ] current gpa: We don't do GPAs in Canada.
[ .046. ] favorite grade: 11 for shizzle
[ .047. ] least favorite grade: 4-7
[ .048. ] favorite teacher: Balley to the max!!
[ .049. ] least favorite teacher: hmm Mrs. Taylor
[ .050. ] favorite subject: drama, gym
[ .051. ] least favorite subject: Math
[ .052. ] do/did you buy lunch or bring it: i bring it bitchez
[ .053. ] play any sports on the school's team: yeah right lmao
[ .054. ] do/did you do any extracurricular activities: Nope.
[ .055. ] are/was you popular: umm i was in grade 9.. then ppl started making cliques and i didnt suit in any of em.. so meh fuck you cliches basterd
[ .056. ] favorite dance: fuckin Samba??.. i dont know haha
[ .057. ] favorite memory: OH GOD WWWAAAAYYYYY TO MANY.. EVERYTIME IM WITH MY BUDDIES DRINKING
[ .058. ] favorite memory you want to have: Getting a high ranking in the fuckin army
[ .059. ] least favorite memory: umm getting busted by the cops for drinking downtown
[ .060. ] most humiliating moment: pulling a huge scene at a show when i was fuckin trashed and really upset
F A V 0 R i T E S
[ .061. ] number: 8
[ .062. ] letter: J
[ .063. ] shoes: brown skate shoes?
[ .064. ] saying(s): Bitchez!!!!
[ .065. ] TV show:HOUSE!! LOST!! Fuckin Trailor park boys!!
[ .066. ] sport: Basketball..javelin..BASEBALL<3333
[ .067. ] vegetable: carrots
[ .068. ] fruit: plums
[ .069. ] movie: American History X...Almost Famous and Pretty in Pink
[ .070. ] magazine: meh .. cool ones?
[ .071. ] actor: EDWARD NORTON TO THE MAX ..and JASON LEE
[ .072. ] actress: fuck girls theyre bitchez
[ .073. ] candy: hmm..KIT KATs
[ .074. ] gum: meh gum is gum.. minty kind?
[ .075. ] scent: guys colon lol
[ .076. ] candy bar: meh .. i dont like junk food to much
[ .077. ] ice cream flavor:Heavenly Hash Fo SHo!
[ .078. ] color: GREEN and BROWN<333
[ .079. ] season: Summer/Fall
[ .080. ] holiday: New years **my bday
[ .081. ] band: Way to many.. op ivy..Eagles.. Queen..Casualties.. devotckas.. i could go on forever i wont even get started
[ .082. ] singer: Joe walsh
[ .083. ] group: Eagles
[ .084. ] rapper: ffuuuccckk rape.. unless is tim armstrong haha
[ .085. ] type of music: punk.ska.. hardcore
[ .086. ] thing in your room: bed desk dressers..tv dvdplayer cds cdplayer shit like that
[ .087. ] place to be: with joe lmao
[ .089. ] tv channel: i dont really watch tv
[ .090. ] junk food: i dont really care for junk food. unless its fuckin those baked lays lmao
[ .091. ] overall food: hmm i dont know..those nature valley bars!!<33
[ .092. ] store: any store really.. if it has something i like i dont care where its from
[ .093. ] hangout: with my buddies.. danes place.. so chillen
[ .094. ] fast food: Taco bell bitchez
[ .095. ] restaurant:hmm swiss chalet?
[ .096. ] shape: star lol
[ .097. ] time of day: night time
[ .098. ] country: Canada represent
[ .100. ] boys name: hmm Keith
[ .101. ] girls name: Angela.. or Kera
[ .102. ] mall: Devonshire?
[ .103. ] video game:SONIC!!! old school sega what!
[ .104. ] shampoo: Pantene
[ .105. ] board game: Sorry!!
[ .106. ] computer game: I dont roll like that..
[ .107. ] car: if i can drive it i dont care
[ .108. ] music video: meh .. i dont know..
[ .109. ] swear word: Bitchez
[ .110. ] word: Douche!
[ .111. ] month: June
[ .112. ] cartoon character: Salad Fingers?
[ .113. ] scary movie: Texas Chainsaw
[ .114. ] team: i dontknow.. Toronto ?
[ .115. ] possession: .. meh i dont know.. my cds and record player.. Joe<3
WHATS THE FiRST THiNG Y0U TH0UGHT 0F WHEN Y0U HEAR..
[ .116. ] eminem: white boy
[ .117. ] dog: shit
[ .118. ] hot: black
[ .119. ] britney spears: SLLUUUTTt
[ .120. ] nsync: *breaks down** damn uh uh .. hip thrust
[ .121. ] real world: crummy show
[ .122. ] orange: county
[ .123. ] choice: the grocery brand
[ .124. ] present: eww awkwardness
[ .125. ] bisexual:meh...
[ .126. ] black: night time
[ .127. ] icq: Icp??.. how i dont know
[ .128. ] insane clown posse: Damn.. hit that bitch!!
[ .129. ] linkin park. ..jogging**i would always jog to their cd lol**
[ .130. ] jack: off.
[ .131. ] rainbow: Gay.
[ .133. ] cucumber: nasty shit
[ .134. ] shark: Tales
[ .135. ] lifehouse: MY FAVOURITE THINGS..SO PRETTTY!!!
[ .136. ] bat: man
[ .137. ] leather: Jacket
[ .138. ] whip: Kinky
[ .139. ] america: FUCK YOU
[ .140. ] water: mmm **drinks**
[ .141. ] volcano: BLLLAAMMM!!
T H i S - 0R - T H A T ?
[ .142. ] rock or rap: Rock.
[ .143. ] rock or pop: Rock.
[ .144. ] rock or r&b: Rock.
[ .145. ] rock or metal: rock
[ .146. ] rap or pop: rap
[ .147. ] rap or r&b: rap
[ .148. ] rap or metal: rap,metal,rap,metal...whitney huston LMFAO ahahahahah.
[ .149. ] pop or r&b: pop
[ .150. ] pop or metal: metal
[ .151. ] r&b or metal: metal
[ .152. ] linkin park or limp bizkit: L.P
[ .153. ] tool or korn: Korn.
[ .154. ] selena or jennifer lopez: does it matter cause J.lo played in that movie Selena lmao AND SHE WAS SELENA im not answering this.
[ .155. ] hot or cold: Hot.
[ .156. ] winter or summer: Summer
[ .157. ] spring or fall: Fall
[ .158. ] shakira or britney: Shakira
[ .159. ] icp or eminem: Icp
[ .160. ] marilyn manson or rob zombie: Marilyn Manson
[ .161. ] kittie or garbage: Kittie
[ .162. ] mtv or vh1:meh vh1?
[ .163. ] buffy or angel: Fuck both those shows
[ .164. ] dawson's creek or gilmore girls: Dawsons Creek!<3
[ .165. ] football or basketball: Basketball
[ .166. ] summer olympics or winter olympics: Winter
[ .167. ] skiing or snowboarding: snowboarding.
[ .168. ] rollerblading or skateboarding: skateboarding.
[ .169. ] black or white: Black
[ .170. ] orange or red: Orange
[ .171. ] yellow or green: Green
[ .172. ] purple or pink: Purple
[ .173. ] slipknot or mudvayne: meh i dontknow
[ .174. ] hot topic or pac sun: havent been to either so i dont know
[ .175. ] inside or outside: Outside, if its warm.
[ .176. ] weed or alcohol: ALCOHOL!!!!!!!
[ .177. ] cell phone or pager: Cell!
[ .178. ] pen or pencil: Pencil
[ .179. ] powerpuff girls or charlie's angels: Charlies angels
[ .180. ] scooby doo or dino: DINO<33 **cuz im pebbles**
[ .181. ] dragon ball z or pokemon: FUCK BOTH THOSE GAY ANIME SHIT
[ .182. ] star wars or star trek: neither
[ .183. ] tattoos or piercings: TATS
[ .184. ] prep or punk: dont care lol
[ .185. ] slut or whore: Neither...whats the diff?
P R i V A T E L i F E
[ .186. ] do you have a boyfriend or girlfriend: Yes
[ .187. ] do you have a crush: only on my bf lol
[ .188. ] do you love anyone right now: hmm i dont know if its love yet
[ .189. ] have you ever been in love: naahhh..
[ .190. ] how many people have you kissed: Fuck it i dont know i dont keep a journal on who i have kissed.
[ .191. ] who was your first kiss: ummm jeff Natais lol
[ .192. ] how many hearts of have you broken: a few
[ .193. ] how many people broke your heart: oonly 2 boys
[ .194. ] best quote to sum up love: You want it . but cant stand it
[ .195. ] so what is your bf/gf/crush like: Hes amazing.. so cute and awesome.. always telling me the cutest things.. the nicest most caring guy ive met... gorgeous!
[ .196. ] do you have a picture of him/her: no he was supposed to give me one.. damn i forgot to get one..aagghhh.
[ .197. ] please post it if you do: FUCK YOUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!
[ .198. ] do you have a picture of yourself: Yeees
[ .199. ] please post it if you do: umm no
[ .200. ] do you go by looks or personality: Looks are what attract me to talk to them.. but personality it was makes my decision of whether i like em or not
[ .201. ] ever kiss a friend: well seeing as all my friends are guys.. yea.. and i kissed bit when i was drunk lmao haha..oops sorry sista
[ .202. ] are you still friends: um of course!
[ .203. ] so moving along..do you smoke: nope
[ .204. ] do you smoke weed: not gunna lie.. a few times.. i dont like it though.. at all...
[ .205. ] ever trip on acid: ALL THE TIME OMG. no you fuckin idiot.
[ .206. ] how about a little x: Damn like right now.. and yesterday.. like wtf never tried it.. fuck
[ .207. ] crack, heroin, anything else: Yea cuz im a HUGE druggie!
[ .208. ] beer good or beer bad: BEER AWESOME
[ .209. ] are you the sissy who drinks wine coolers: hahahahaha no
[ .210. ] do you like smirnoff ice: Umm who doesnt?
[ .211. ] prefer beer or liquor: either!! they both treat me right
[ .212. ] what kind of cigarettes do you smoke: i dont.
[ .213. ] are you a virgin: You bet your balls i fuckin am
[ .214. ] if no, when was the last time you got some: umm never?.
W 0 U L D Y 0 U EVER..
[ .215. ] bungee jump: Yeah!
[ .216. ] sky dive: Yeah!
[ .217. ] swim with dolphins: Yeeep.
[ .218. ] scuba dive: Sure!
[ .219. ] go rock climbing: Yeah!
[ .220. ] eat crap for $1,000,000: nahhh
[ .221. ] turn your back on your friends for personal gain: never
[ .222. ] steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: ummi have once.. and i wishi never did that
[ .223. ] cross-dress: Sure!
[ .224. ] lie to the police: lmao yes.
[ .225. ] run from the police: yeah right .. have a few times lmao
[ .226. ] lie to your parents: Yes.
[ .227. ] walk up to a stranger and kiss them: umm no thank you
[ .228. ] be an exotic dancer: with a body like this.. fuck no lol
[ .229. ] walk out of a restaurant without paying: if i couldi would
[ .230. ] streak: maybe .. if i was drunk enough lmao
Y 0 U R F R I E N D S
[ .231. ] best friends: brit..dane..nolan..alisa..alex..brennan..matt..jordan..amy..krystal
[ .232. ] known longest: Brit
[ .233. ] wish you talked to more: Nolan that fucker
[ .234. ] wish you saw more: all my D.P buddies
[ .235. ] how many friends do you think you have: oh fuck i dont know im loved by many and hated by many .. well not really so much hated but meh lol
[ .236. ] who drives you insane after a while: Alisa lmao
[ .237. ] who can you stay around forever and never get sick of: meh no one.. i get really antsy and easily annoyed
[ .238. ] ever lose a good friend because you took it to the 'next level':yea haha
[ .239. ] craziest: Nolan for sure
[ .240. ] loudest: Me
[ .241. ] shyest: alisa?
[ .242. ] best hair: Brit mofo
[ .243. ] can always make you laugh: nolan and dane with matt too
[ .244. ] best eyes: alisa
[ .246. ] most athletic: None of em .. i guess.. maybe brennan?.. or all my dp buddies since they skate?
[ .247. ] sex symbol: I dunno none theyre like my brothers man
[ .248. ] hot tempered: me haha.. DANE!
[ .249. ] most impatient: me and dane lol.. oh and brit for shizzle
[ .250. ] shortest: Me and brit haha
[ .251. ] tallest: nolan or jordan
[ .252. ] talented: umm everyone has a talent of somesort
[ .253. ] best singer: i dont know
[ .254. ] skinniest: Brit and Jordan
[ .255. ] nicest: alex
[ .256. ] best personality: Brit
[ .257. ] biggest drug user: Dane and nolan
HAVE Y0U EVER:
[ .258. ] flashed someone:yes
[ .259. ] told a person how you felt bout them: im very outgoing and open with my thoughts so all the time
[ .260. ] been to michigan: nope
[ .262. ] gone to jail or juvi: close when i was lil .. i was SO bad
[ .263. ] skateboarded: yes..attempted at least
[ .264. ] skinny dipped: somewhat ya
[ .265. ] stolen anything: yup
[ .266. ] wanted to kick my butt for making this so long: Nah.
[ .267. ] kicked someone's butt: a few.. used to scrape alot in grade school and shit
[ .268. ] pegged someone in the head with a snowball: Yes lmao
[ .269. ] broken a beer bottle: Yes.. and got busted for it oo.. fuck man!
[ .270. ] gotten into a bar, under-aged: Fuck ya!
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| Stolen from shane haha |
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2. I'll tell you something I dislike about you.
3. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
4. I'll say something that makes me laugh when I think of you.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
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| Stolen from shane haha |
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6. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
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| way to let it all go down |
[20 Jan 2006|07:05am] |
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FUCKKKKK
well hmm i definately fucked up my life and career..
Heres the story:
Ive been playing everything around goin to the RMC its a military college.. and well seeing as it was a college i thought i would only need college math.. well.. haha.. turns out i need a fuckin university .. although ive been taking college all throughout highschool.. im in grade 11 and its a bit to late to turn back now.. so my guidance counselor.. said he would bump me up into the university course withouth having to write anything or take a prep course. im thinking to myself.. uuhh theres no way i could do that ...the math ive been taking is no where near being as in depth as university.. for instance.. grade 11 college math your doing budgeting, marketing and simple math.. but grade 11 unviersity your learning more formulas and scientific notation.. alright i may be smart.. but not that fuckin smart.. so i took the paper anyways.. and after school i went to my old math teacher and asked for her advice.. she looked at me and was like "Theres no way youll be able to handle it.. even with you being my brightest student last year" then she continued on saying how its a huge step .. ill more then likely just struggle and probably fail.. she was harsh .. but thats how she is.. honest and straight forward..So i cant take the math i need.. so i told giudance that .. and he said well then you better find anew career path.. FFFUUUCCKK.. ive been looking forward to goin to RMC for soooo fuckin long.. ive been so pumped and ready for it.. but now .. i dont even know what im goin to do .. be a security guard or some bull shit.. man ugh.. this really sucks.. ill kill myself if im stuck being a stupid security rent a cop!
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| Tear Down Your Idols |
[16 Jan 2006|04:18pm] |
01. What is your middle name? Emily
02. Last person you kissed? Oliver
03. What are you listening to right now? Cocksparrer
04. Last two digits of your phone number? 49 for home 17 for cell
05. Last thing you ate? umm rice cakes mmm.
06. Last person you hugged? Eric? or alisa?
07. How is the weather right now? Pretty darn nice i think i might actually go for a jog tonight
08. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? oh geex i dont know my folks?
09. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? Smile
10. Favorite type of Food? poptarts..rice cakes.. RICE!! noodles!.. perogies..nutrigran bars
11. Do you drink? uh no?.. psshh yes<3
12. Do you smoke? Nope
13. Ever get so drunk you dont remember what you did? lol alot
14. Hair color? Plain Ugly Brown:(
15. Eye color? Once again plain ugly brown
16. Do you wear contacts? nuh uh
17. Favorite Holiday? My bday/New years
18. When's your Birthday? January 1st
19. Have you ever cried for no reason? used to alot.. not as much anymore
20. Last Movie You Watched? umm hitch?.. noo pretty in pink
21: last time you were at work? never worked
22. Last time you were out of your town? ..umm saturday went to essex to see my homegirl Brit<3
23. Last time you went bowling? umm.. i played bowling on my cell lmao .. but like i think near october with mike
24. Something unusual about you? umm everything lmao . my personality
25. Favorite breakfast food? umm CHEERIOS ALL THE WAY BITCHEZ
26. Favorite color? Brown Green and Black
27. What are you afraid of? Zombies.. Getting Lost..Drowning..the dark .. being alot.. forgotten.. hated
28. If you could take a trip anywhere where would it be? Nova Scotia.. or France
29. What books are you reading? school books...Macbeth!..
30. Piercings? only ears.. sadly
31. Favorite movie? Almost Famous..American HistoryX..Swing Kids...Pretty in Pink...Zoolander.. The notebook..The count Of Monte Cristo
32. Favorite basketball team? umm i dont really have one.. but if i had to choose lakers
33. What were you doing before you filled this out? eating.. taking a break from homework
34. Any pets? My kittie Earnhardt
35. Instant Messanger Name? Dancing with myself__X
36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? umm white cheese main mmmm
37. DOGS OR CATS? Cats.. i guess
38. Favorite Flower? White roses
39. Have you ever been caught doing something you weren't supposed to? Yea.. a couple of things..
40. Are you single or taken? Single.. iguess
41. Have you ever loved someone? nope... thought i did but i was wrong
42. Who would you like to see right now? my buddies
43. What's your occupation? Student.. i need a job
44. Have you ever fired a gun? BB gun..paintball gun...watergun lmao
46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Righty
47. If you could be with someone right now, who would it be? umm my buddies
48. How many pillows do you sleep with? three
49. Are you missing someone? uuhhh somewhat i guess
50. Do you have a Tattoo? soon to be one
51. Do you still watch cartoons on saturday mornings? Saturday has morning? lmao haha im never up intime to see it
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| Put It In A Body Bag |
[15 Jan 2006|10:50pm] |
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Firsts...
First Best Friend:Amber
First Kiss: Jeff nada
First Screen Name:Love bug<3
First Pet: i remember my dogs harely and brandy
First Piercing: My ears
First Crush: umm..hmm i had a crush on one of my dads friends lmao gotta love the older ones lmao
First Music: Guns and Roses
First Car: my labarron.. well its goin to be mine in a few months lol
7 Lasts...
Last Cigarette: Like 4 months ago lmao
Last alchoholic beverage: umm saturday
Last Car Ride: around 3 today
Last Kiss: about 20 minutes ago with oliver.
Last Movie Seen: umm the ringer with once again oliver
Last Phone Call: about an hour and half ago from my mom lol
Last CD Played: punk rock is your friend 5 lmao haha.. brit gave it to me so im checkin it out
6 Have You Evers....
Have You Ever Dated One Of Your Best Friends: yup
Have You Ever Broken the Law: umm yea quite often
Have You Ever Been Arrested: umm been put under custody .. does that count?
Have You Ever Skinny Dipped: yup haha.. oh man
Have You Ever Been on TV: yup.. singing comp
5 Things....
5 Things You're Wearing:umm jeans.. studded belt.. black tshirt with my patch sweater and underwear
5 Things You've Done Today: singing practice..checked out a house..hung out with my sister and claudia.. hung out with oliver.. went to the bridge with oliver sean and jordan
5 Things You Can't Live Without: Music, friends,movies, walkman, love.
5 Places You've Been: essex toronto shelburn orangeville techumseh?
4 Favorite things In NO Order:
1. Music
2. Friends
3. Beer
4. Ska
3 People You Can Tell *Almost* Anything To:
1. Britany
2. Alisa
3. Mollie
2 Choices...
1. Black or White: black
2. Hot or Cold: hot
1 Thing You Want to Do Before you die: hmmm..live.. i like that answer..make something of myself that i can be happy with
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| You cant hide your lying eyes |
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Alrighty so this has been an AWESOME weekend so far.. i mean awesome!
Friday-
Went to the mall with alisa.. met up with her buddy steve ( crazy guy)
We walked around, talked.. did stupid/funny shit DIP N DOTS!
umm we ate.. i got my daily dose of timmy hoes
sat in the food court and as i was calling oliver to see when he was coming he came up behind me..
he brought it friend jordan.. what a funny kid
Umm we chilled in the mall..steve took a "shower" oh man
then we all shipped off to my house
We chilled in my room.. listened to music.. watched American History X <333
It was fun
Talked alot of trash.. got tickel tortured.. numerous fucking times.. i hate you Oliver and steve.. and Alisa.. all of you!
then we walked alisa home.. the walk home was uuuhhh pretty interesting
They acted as zombies since im terrified of em.. and chased me.. assholes
umm then jordan pretened to be a retard.. the funniest shit ive seen in a long time.. but i got him to crack! basterd!
umm we scared my sister walking up.. the boys left.. i went to chill w/ma sista at the bus stop
Then i came home.. watched hitch with my mom then pretty in pink.. well tried too.. i fell asleep
SATURDAY!!!
-went out to essex to see my lovely britters
-her family was over.. so we played with the lil ones.. and did all our normal shit like old times!
-we pretended her niecekilled her and we became zombies.. so we locked ourselves in brits room and put makeup on us.. we fuckin looked sick man.. like real zombies it was fucked.. i scared myself
-then we chased her lil niece.. she hid under the covers and started to bawl.. we felt really bad so we put makeup on her lol
-then we took pics lol.. ill post em wheni get em..
- we ate dinner.. and chilled
-then john came over.. me brit chris and jon drove into windsor to coreys.
-rick katie jon danika another chris and i think nicole?.. were all there.. we just chilled talked watched football..
- we went to mcdonalds.. i was the last one to get my food.. i go out.. and ricks cars gone i was like woa wtf.. they left me.. then i looked around and they moved spots and were hiddin down.. basterds
-then ALL of us shipped off to play LASER TAG!
-but before me and jon played some games.. DDR i fucked up so bad haha woohoo!
-then we played laser tag and if was the best thing in my entire life and the funnest!.. man dodging. shooting running into so many ppl.. in huge two level maze sorta thing.so much funny shit happened during the game too oh man . AMAZING im addicted to laser tag.. i wanna play it next weekend.. friday maybe!?
-ummm then we got our scores back we went back to coreys.. grabbed chris's stuff.. jon dropped me off downtown so i could catch the bus..
-came home.. hyper.. so i watched movies played sega...
-went to bed.
SUNDAY
-woke up.. lazed around played sonic
-went to singing practice shit thing
-came home .. lazed.. went to look at a house.. it was nice.. but one of the bedrooms was SOOO small.. and we were like uh nahh.. so looks like im not moving anytime soon yet...FUCK
alrighty well thats about it. im goin to finish my gym isu .. adios
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The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.
In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.
You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.
Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.
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| You Are 23 Years Old | 
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax. |
| You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish |
You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be. |
AND MY FAV ONE LOL..OH GOSH DETOX PILLS!..
| You Were a Little Naughty This Year! | 
While you're not likely to greet Santa with sucker punch...
He's still not too jolly about coming to your house.
You might get a small token from Mr. Claus
Like some detox pills for your liver. |
| You Are a Punk Rocker! | 
When it comes to rock, you don't follow any rules
You know that rocking out is all about taking down the man
You've got an incredible stage presence and rock persona
You scare moms, make bad girls (or boys) swoon, and live life on the edge! |
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| Seaside Rendevous |
[08 Jan 2006|12:35am] |
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So the rest of my break .. well the last week of it has been AWESOME!
Ive been busy all the time.. bouncing from one friend to another.. its pretty sweet
Ive chilled alisa a few times.. and brennan and matt.. jordan.. amy..
Saw kingkong with my sister.. horrible!! seriously we fell asleep .. it was so bad!!! it dragged on for far far too long!!
Umm i had a cat follow me home.. well me and alisa.. and it was rubbing against my legs while i was walking made me trip everystep.. when me and alisa spilt it stood in the middle of the raod tryin to decide to follow home.. lucky me (not) it followed me home.. and i named it Oliver ( the homeless boy) and then it was supposed to go back home.. but it wouldnt let me get in my house without it coming in.. so i hgave him food and booked it outside.. for last 4 days hes been coming around.. meowing at my window.. but my folks wont let me keep the poor thing. it hasnt been around last night or today.. maybe it went home! .. Hopefully!
Umm Wednesday i went to chill with brit.. it was pretty sweet.. me her katie and danika just chilled watched the whole season one dvd of That 70s Show.. i was so tired and passin out on the couch so i went home.. for some reason got energy.. and decided to go to timmy hoes at like 1:30 in the morn with alisa.. took some crazy pics.. and a cat followed us home
Thursday went to alisa for the day and chilled there.. we watched a movie.. played some games since it was shitty out.. made pizza.. burned it to shit.. but meh it was still alright in the inside haha.. we both fell asleep.. so i went home cleaned my room. watched some movies and chilled
Umm yesterday..i went to the mall with alisa.. it was pretty fun i guess.. besides being bored for most of the time.. i saw shane.. i havent seen that kid in ages.. i missed him.. we chilled and talked for awhile.. umm then i came home.. brennan called me to go out with him and matt.. we went to matts place and chilled..watched school of rock.. then jordan called us at 12.. we went to meet him.. me brennan and jordan went for a walk.. ran into shawn.. so we all chilled and talked on the road for like a half hour.. then the boys walked me home.
Today woke up chilled.. Oliver came over.. we watched water world..pretty darn good.. and cracked out haha.. umm we then went downtown to skate.. oh god im surprised i didnt fall once.. yet again i skated really slow so i wouldnt haha .. umm i bumped into 3 kids haha.. oops.. i saved them from falling though...It was alot of fun though..and it was really pretty with the lights and it was snowing.. it was awesome... then we went to tim hortons.i wont admit to it.. but i guess so he thinks lol.. that he kicked my ass.. he picked me up and carried me to timmy hoes haha. chilled there for bit.. then we went to chinese food resturant ate.. and walked back to his car.. we drove back here.. we were locked out.. so we went for a walk to the marina.. haha talked some smack and threw snow at eachother.. basterd! lol came back.. and finsihed watching the movie..he tickled torchued me basically .. but hes just as tickelish.. paybacks are a bitch haha.. umm he had to leave.. so i went to my sisters house since shes staying at this place a street over.. i went there played some piano lol.. ate some stale oreos .. yucky.. we chilled.. she showed me around.. we watched napolian dynamite.. and talked.. i came home around 12ish cuz i was tired.. now im just chillen and listening to some queen.. about to watch another movie... maybe! what a way to end the break.. hehe awesome day
Well thats it for today folks!
i dont want school to come back.. ugh
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Happy fuckin new years eve (drinking alone) go moi!
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